I just want to be healthy.

The Journey to Healthyville is paved with tiny rocks that get stuck in your shoe. The Journey of an obese women who wants to fit into her wedding dress. Part of the Healthyville Series on MyPocketfulOfThoughts.com

My wedding is 128 days away and I can’t fit into my jeans. Houston we have a PROBLEM. When I picked up my dress in March, I tried it on. I was worried that it wouldn’t fit. It fit like a glove, minus the length. My tiny 5 foot 2 and a quarter frame would drown in the fabric so I would have to just take it up a bit. Now. Well, I’m trying not to panic. No. I’m not panicking. I’m not panicking. I’M NOT PANICKING!

I shouldn’t panic right?

I am EXTREMELY anxious though. My weight has gone up and down over the last ten years. I’ve been so focused on numbers and feeling totally defeated when I continue to be so far from my ultimate weight goal. It’s become torture. I’ve felt the effects of extra weight; The weight equivalent to a small child.  I carry it around with me, everywhere I go.

Have I been going about it all wrong?

At the end of the day I just want to be healthy. Something has to change. But what?

Have you quieted the voice within that tells you to quit every time you step on the scale?

I came across this Infographic that describes the cost and perceptions of obesity. Did I mention I was obese? Granted most of my weight adds to my curves.  BUT when my curves require me to update my wardrobe OR causes me to go to the doctors for unforeseen consequences…. well the journey to healthy feels like a losing battle. This is deja vu. I’ve been here before.

So while I think of what needs to change … here’s the Infographic I mentioned.

NEW INFOGRAPHIC: The Rates, Costs & Perceptions of Obesity
Infographic Source: http://www.bistroMD.com

Has your weight compromised your health? Have you been on the weight see-saw like me? Have you quieted the voices that make you quit? Have you succeeded in getting to your healthy weight goal? What has worked for you? What hasn’t worked for you? Do you think I’ll fit into my wedding dress? :-O

Looking to get back on the horse to Healthyville,

Until then,

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